Years ago I was reading an interview of a guy named David Wilcock. David is an author and has a cool website at https://divinecosmos.com. When he was younger he worked in a mental health institution providing care to people with various types of handicaps. I gather is was a stressful environment for everyone involved.
One takeaway from the interview was about how the behaviour of the people at the hospital changed simply by him holding an idea of love and forgiveness in his mind. David would think about and repeat the two part phrase ‘I love you, I forgive you’ internally in his mind. He Just put his attention on the idea of love and forgiveness and the level of anxiety and stress the patients exhibited in the hospital dropped.
I thought that would be really interesting if a mental activity or state that you hold inside your mind could have a noticeable affect on others around you. So I tried it.
On the first occasion I laid down on my bed and relaxed for a few minutes and begun with a low level of effort or intensity the phrase ‘I love you, I forgive you.’ with a pause over and over. On each iteration I put my focus on my solar plexus / abdomen to represent myself and I would visualize virtual hands to point. Almost immediately I felt what I would describe as a trance like state that was calming relaxing and left open a space for me to continue with the process.
After about thirty minutes within the trance state I started to feel really good almost euphoric. I continued this for about two hours over the next few days and I got to a point where I had to stop because the feeling of trance and euphoria were so strong that it was making me nauseous like I had been riding a rollercoaster for an extended period of time.
During the process something interesting came up while repeating the ‘I forgive you.’ portion. Memories from my past all the way back to my childhood of either things that I had done that were embarrassing or hurtful to others. Because I was in a trance state they played like in a dream and popped up in front of me from nothing. Most of these issues that came up I was able to reconcile them and appreciate why I did them and how they changed me in a way that I can let go of. But there were a few in particular that were not easy to actually forgive myself for so I just accepted that I can’t address it right away and then let all thoughts go for a while and came back to it later. I feel like I am ok with all of the issues that came up previously and I haven’t had any new ones show up for a while now.
One effect that I noticed as a result of this right away is that when I am sick with a cold or other illness this will reduce the recovery time by about four times easily. I now often do this through the day for five minutes in addition to longer times when I can lay down.
I have tried other forms of meditation with other very unique experiences in the past but this one has been the most consistent in terms of effects. I wanted to share this and see if anyone else has the same experience.
This is more of a how to based on my experience. Additionally I believe this has had a lot of interesting results magically manifest themselves in my life that I will continue to experiment with and write about later.
Many years ago I worked at an internet geography company as a software developer. There was a woman there who said to me in conversation something to the effect that if you intend for things to happen to you, they will. This was about eleven years ago and while people do on occasion mention things like the law of attraction now in my recollection this was very rare back then. It would have been a few years after the book ‘the secret’ came out. The woman left her position later that week.
Several years later I had reached out to a friend of mine that I worked with at a job even previous to the geography company. I received an invitation to a game night hosted by an investment company and asked my friend if he wanted to go, and he joined me. The game was like monopoly with a board where players would roll dice to move positions with the goal of earning enough game money to retire and win the game. This was supposed to be a metaphor for win the game of life. The distinction in this game from monopoly was that all of the money earning activities were very specific deals and they required each player to keep a ledger to balance cash flow and expenses. Mid way though the game I apologized for bringing him to what felt to me like a math party. It was just hours of number crunching and weighing strategy for buying and selling assets and business as we each took turns moving our player pieces around the board. He seemed to accept it for what it was and didn’t show any sign of regret.
All in all it was a really meh evening from my point of view however at the end of the game the results surprised me. My friend who was suffering from pretty high student loans, a separation from his girlfriend and a drastic drop in the value of their condo they could not sell, coincidently suffered the worst luck in the game. Every turn he would get a bad roll or a bad deal and for the several hours we played he never had a chance to accumulate enough capital to really participate. It was a really crappy game for him, and I recall him saying, “story of my life” and laughed it off.
Then I noticed that same woman I used to work with at the geography company there at another table with her husband. She was so pleased by the results she told the hosts and said ‘I had a baby in the game and I’m having a baby in real life!’. She then showed off her belly to prove it. It was clear to me how everyone was seeing game results that reflected their lives. My game bothered me though. Unlike my friend I didn’t have bad luck, I did earn enough to play the game but I was too conservative and before I knew it the evening was over and I missed my chance to win it all. For me at the time this was also true in my real life. I was doing ok, working hard at work and side businesses but not winning it all.
This observation I had that night seems to be what the opposite side of law of attraction looks like. Where one side is pushing outwardly a desired idea or feeling and seeing it come back the other is simply observing all of the different parts of your experience as they reflect back to you what you have been thinking and to some degree who you are as a person.
Looking back now I am ok with the way I played the game of life. While I didn’t win it all in the short timeframe the game took place it certainly paid off in the end. I will write more about that another day.